no life. a phantom grins and whispers, a choking laughter, its gonna take away your fever, and thoughts inside your head, i cant navigate the terror pent up in your smile and awkward rigid walk, i cant keep it all together. i swear company doesn't mean anything to me, but the closer you pull yourself the more it burns and bleeds, you never noticed just seen the color crimson race through your white clothing and said " youre kidding" everything was beautiful and nothing hurt played backwards in my head. still reliving memories from 2 years ago, swore id crawl into a different skin but they think you are a freak anyway. and when i sit here to waste, terrified, blue and bellicose, pumping poison through my veins, i wish that loneliness was enough for me, but i know i am never gonna change, happiness is an empty emerald cage, sparkle, bubble over, and and in the morning all you got is rain, all you got is rain. "shine on me baby, cause its raining in my heart, shine on me baby, cause its raining, in my heart." i put myself in destructive situations and take the path well tread to oblivion, i cant help myself