today is gray. i feel refined to that same hum-drum city logic on days when i cannot distinguish the cracked gray sidewalk from a pregnant sky. but with a curt tip of the hat the weather can turn its good shoulder and shine on you brighter and more beautiful than it ever seemed before. thats the thing about the midwest--the sky is unpredictable, you can never tell what kind of day or person you'll be based on the sky. the weather here is definitely an esoteric personality. though despite the ambiguities and seemingly arbitrary circumstances that roll in and out with the ever bellowing chanty midwest sky, i start to think that there are some certainties in the seemingly capricious order of things. i mean, subtle reoccurances of the same event like the constant collision of arbitrary atoms, must mean something. what i really mean is the girl with the green pea coat. because you wish it it never means that it will manifest itself as a true and real actuality. i wonder why there is so much light in the dark then. it seems like things that do not compromise each other run hand in hand off the cliff of reason. i suppose i should have paid more attention to things outside--never discounting the potential of anything. today i may just watch the sky.